Church and Easter!!!!!!!

First of all....
how was your easter?
hope it was a great one...
mine was great...
my church (eventhough it doesn't feel like home unlike my previous church in Indonesia) had an event called The Power of The Cross...like the title, the event was about the power of the cross...
in this easter...
here is my revolution for this easter....i made a promise to myself to be a better person...
a person who can satisfy God...
a person who won't let him down...
i hope i can fulfill my own promise...
eventhough i know its not easy...
but i have a great God...
God who will help me in everything i do...
nothing is impossible for Him....
thank you for the cross Jesus...
the cross reminds me of how suffered u were to bear my sin....
the cross reminds me to be a better person....
God...i want to change...
i'm willing to change...
help me God...
anyway...
i joint the choir team for that event...
we sang 'Majesty' by Delirious?
eventhough we are not a proffesional choir (unlike my brother's choir who sang really great)...
but i know...deep in my heart..
that God won't see how good u are..but he will see how willing u are to serve Him....
hoho....

'we're so amazed and we give You praise
that You would save us at such cost
we're so amazed and we give You praise
for the power of the cross'

that song became the song of the day at that day...
we sang that song 3 times....
well...the theme of the event is 'the Power of The Cross'....
no wonder that song became the song of the day....

it is really hard for me to write the next part of this blog...
coz i don't really want to write about it..
i don't want people got the wrong idea about church...
it not about 'Church' it is about the 'people' in it....
hmmm...
i feel different about my church here in Melbourne...
i don't really feel like home there....
like there is a wall that blocked me to feel that way....
how can i call it home when i'm not feeling save there?
when i get close to a guy (close as a friend)....
people start gossiping around...
not all people in my church...
but certain people....
o get tired of the gossip...
can't i just live my usual life without al the gossips?
can't boys and girls have a friendship realtionship?
come on...
grow up....
when i get close to somebody...
it doesn't mean that i like that person...
please.....
i'm really tired of this thing...
church is a place to pray to God...
to worship Him...
not a place to search for boyfriend or girlfriend....
if my church is that kind of church...
i think it is time to change.....

'Majesty' by Delirious?

Majesty (Here I Am)

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice