What a day!!!!

okk...i haven't updated this blog for ages...
i even forgot that this blog is really exist...
i have such a bad day today...
okk...here's the thing...
i got an email said that i have an overdue book that i have to return to the library...
but the thing is...i've returned the book...
but i put the book in a trolley to bring the book back to its shelf...
stupid me...
and now the fine reached $1000 dollar...
can u imagine that...
better pay the lost fine which is only $125 dollars....
i'm so so stupid...
hope i can resolve this problem with the library stuff tomorrow...
i really don't want to pay any of those fines u know....
$125 is quite a lot...
ohh...and one more thing...
i've moved on...
i've moved on from everything...
i wish to be a new person...
a better one if i could...
my life is not perfect....
but i think i can think about it positively...
because u know what...
when u think that u have a beautiful life....
probably your life won't look so dull anymore....
probably....u will see that there's a solution for every single problem....
we can't enjoy life if we keep thinking that nothing good will come...
sthg good will definetely come...
u just hv to wait patiently for it....
until that time...
please thinking that u have a good enough world to go by....
because............heyyy...everything will look prettier if u have a positive attitude....believe me....it will....
well then...that's all for today...
night reader....
love u all so muchhh...
muachhhhhhhhh

XOXO

Fragments of Memories

we used to laugh
we used to cry
we used to tease each other
but still
it was in the past...

the past tense kill me...
why i couldn't turn back the time...
and live in it once more??
now it is too late to regret everything...

i can't turn back the time and force you to be like you were before...
i can't make you see me as you used to see me...
i can't make you call me like you used to call me...
i just can't turn back the time...

i'm trying to adapt to the new situation...
i'm acting strong in front of you...
but i feel pain everytime i see you...
my heart ache thinking of the moment when we used to be together...

there is no more us...
now it is just you...
and now it is just me...
i'll keep the memory about us....
till i found someone like you....

this memory will become...
my precious fragments of memories...

My Faith....

i watched something about Jesus and Bible on YouTube when i finally decided to write this....
i am crying right now as i write this blog...
i am so sad to discover what people out there think about Jesus....
and what those people who called them selves Christian but did not act like one tell the society what Christian is...
for me...
Christianity is all about Jesus...
it all begins with HIM...
and it will all end with HIM...
that's what Christianity for me...
i'm not a perfect Christian......
i still do sins...
but GUYS...for those who said that JESUS is not GOD...
i just pray each and everyday...
that someday...
you all will see the light...
HE is a great GOD...
HE loves us so much that HE gave his life...
GUYS...we don't have much time left...
be prepared...
coz GOD will come back soon and claim HIS kingdom......
i just pray to GOD that i would not be left behind...
i am crying because THOSE people who hate JESUS so much...
they don't know how much JESUS LOVE THEM...
and how WE...
PRAY FOR THEM SO THEY Will not be left behind....
after all...
i can only say this pray to my father GOD

'GOD...Bless them...
i know You love them as much as You love me
and you teach us to love them whole heartedly...
Lord...let them see YOUR love...
and let them see...
that its all by Your Mercy that we all been saved...
THANK YOU JESUS...'

LAST DAY OF EXAM!!!!!!!

horeee....today is my last day of exam...
i've done my exam paper...
and it went smoothly...
thank GOD for that..
well anyway....
i go with my best friend to boxhill today...
we planned to eat ZAB Thai at first...
but when we got there...
guess what...
it closed....
grrrr...
so we decided to eat David and Camy noodle instead...
it was yummy..
but the portion is crazy!!!
WOW....
u guys should try it if you live in Melbourne....
btw....
i put so much effort to vote for DBSK in http://ipoll.kr/k_click/t.html
i know it such a stupid poll...
but still...
if DBSK can't win such a simple poll like that.
it proves that DBSK Huge Number of Fans is false....
we cassie just made it up...
so cassie....
if you say you love dbsk...
but you don't want to vote for them..
even for small thing like this....
DON'T CALL YOURSELF CASSIE....

EXAM!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhh...benci2....
hal yg paling gw benci di dunia...
EXAM...
and it is math exam...
and it is today....
hope i prepare enough to face the question....
anyway....
kurang lebih sebulan lg TVXQ/DBSK/THSK concert di Tokyo DOME....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...
pengen pergi...
TOKYO DOME BOKKK...
setahu gw penyanyi jepang aja susah concert d sana...
GOOD LUCK DBSK...
and...
happy belated birthday MICKY YOOCHUN....
love you...
cepat sembuh XIAH JUNSU...
XIAH JUNSU...FIGHTING...

Church and Easter!!!!!!!

First of all....
how was your easter?
hope it was a great one...
mine was great...
my church (eventhough it doesn't feel like home unlike my previous church in Indonesia) had an event called The Power of The Cross...like the title, the event was about the power of the cross...
in this easter...
here is my revolution for this easter....i made a promise to myself to be a better person...
a person who can satisfy God...
a person who won't let him down...
i hope i can fulfill my own promise...
eventhough i know its not easy...
but i have a great God...
God who will help me in everything i do...
nothing is impossible for Him....
thank you for the cross Jesus...
the cross reminds me of how suffered u were to bear my sin....
the cross reminds me to be a better person....
God...i want to change...
i'm willing to change...
help me God...
anyway...
i joint the choir team for that event...
we sang 'Majesty' by Delirious?
eventhough we are not a proffesional choir (unlike my brother's choir who sang really great)...
but i know...deep in my heart..
that God won't see how good u are..but he will see how willing u are to serve Him....
hoho....

'we're so amazed and we give You praise
that You would save us at such cost
we're so amazed and we give You praise
for the power of the cross'

that song became the song of the day at that day...
we sang that song 3 times....
well...the theme of the event is 'the Power of The Cross'....
no wonder that song became the song of the day....

it is really hard for me to write the next part of this blog...
coz i don't really want to write about it..
i don't want people got the wrong idea about church...
it not about 'Church' it is about the 'people' in it....
hmmm...
i feel different about my church here in Melbourne...
i don't really feel like home there....
like there is a wall that blocked me to feel that way....
how can i call it home when i'm not feeling save there?
when i get close to a guy (close as a friend)....
people start gossiping around...
not all people in my church...
but certain people....
o get tired of the gossip...
can't i just live my usual life without al the gossips?
can't boys and girls have a friendship realtionship?
come on...
grow up....
when i get close to somebody...
it doesn't mean that i like that person...
please.....
i'm really tired of this thing...
church is a place to pray to God...
to worship Him...
not a place to search for boyfriend or girlfriend....
if my church is that kind of church...
i think it is time to change.....

'Majesty' by Delirious?

Majesty (Here I Am)

Here I am humbled by your Majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I'm a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I'm your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I've found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

BOF ep 22 and 23, Confession of a shopaholic

i've seen BOF ep 22 and 23...

and to tell u the truth...

episode 22 and 23 are quite nice...

eventhough i hate Jun Pyo's mom for what she has done to Ji Hoo and Ga Eul...

but i'm so happy that Ga Eul and Yi Jung made a progress...

yes...they look so nice together...

i think Yi Jung finally open his heart for Ga Eul...

after her hard effort to show Yi Jung the word Sarangahe Yi Jung..(the view is so nice in this scene)...

i can't predict the end of this story yet...

Ji Hoo definitely has a feeling for Jan Di...

that means it will be sad ending for him if Jan Di is with Jun Pyo...

haaa...my poor Ji Hoo...

Jan Di didn't even hear him when he tell her that he loves her...

she didn't hear when he said he doesn't want to lose her....

sad for him...

hikz...

but deep in my heart...

i pray for Jan Di and Jun Pyo to be together...

the look soooo good together...

Jan Di loves Jun Pyo so much..

and Jun Pyo loves her even more than she loves him...

it is so unfair don't you think?

how can she has everything a girl could wish for in this world..?

hahaha...well lucky her...

she has F4 support...

she has a handsome,rich,funny,caring and lovely boyfriend...

and she even have my lovely Ji Hoo as her Guardian angel to guard her all the time...

i'm getting jealous here..

hahaha....

can't wait for the next episode...

i hope it would be a happy ending for all F4...

Jan Di and Jun Pyo

Ga Eul and Yi Jung...

hahahaha...

such a perfect ending...

ok...beside Boys Over Flowers...

i want to write my thought about Confession Of a Shopaholic book...

well...

the first part is kinda boring...

with all her bad luck...

all things seems bad for Becky...

she has lots of debt...

she doesn't liker her career...

and the guy she likes already has a girlfriend...

lucky her huh??

hahahaha...

but at the end...

all things fix...

and she got a nice single man as her boyfriend...

hahaha...

i'm reading the second book now...

hope it will be as good as the first one..

hahaha...

well,that's all...

gotta go now...

need my beauty sleep...

have a nice day all...

i hope all things will be easy for u...

nite...

love u

♥F♥

Friend and Love,which one will i choose?

Friend and Love,which one will i choose?

for me...

i'll choose friend...

i hate a friend like Ji Hoo in BOF...

i don't want to be like him...

i hate people like him...

no...never...

friend is the 3rd most important thing in my life...

the first one is GOD...

second one is family...

third one is friend...

the love....

i hate people who chase after the bestfriend's boyfriend or girlfriend...

yack...

they disgusted me...

stay away from me if u are like that..

i won't respect people like that....

T.G.I Wednesday

Thank GOD its Wednesday...

because i can watch 2 new episodes of BOYS OVER FLOWERS...

2 more episodes and i will miss my lovely Ji Hoo so much...

yepp...BOYS OVER FLOWERS will finish its airing time by March 30....

oh..i'll miss F4...

i'll even miss Geum Jan Di and Ga Eul...

well..overall...i'll miss BOF...

how can i see my lovely Hyun Joong when there's no more BOF anymore?

he'll go to US...

and probably...

there will be less news about him...

oh...

SS501 will produce a new album soon...

can't wait for it...

i know it will be a good album...

because all their albums are great..

u have to hear it urself...

i really2 love it...

ok...

back to BOF...

eventhough i love Hyun Joong...

i hope Jan Di will marry Jun Pyo...

they just so good together....

and as for Ji Hoo...

let him enjoy his time with his grandfather....

i hope Ga Eul and Yi Jung will be together...

well i hope it will be happy ending for all.....

hahahaha....

BOF is such a good drama...

can't wait for Hyun Joong's,Min Ho's and Kim Bum's new drama....

hope they can choose a really good one...

as for Hyun Joong...

hurry up...

make ur comeback with SS501...

hahahha....

take ur leader position back from Young Saeng....

can't wait to see u with them...

eat a lot....(he looks so skinny now)

ahhhhhhhhh...

stop dreaming...

time to sleep...

nite everyone

Love...

♥F♥

What a day

ok....

i'm extremely tired today...

my eyes feel like they are burning....

need to close them soon...

hoahhh....

today is just another boring day...

barely concentrated at macro lecture...

thank to the assignment....

i have quite a bad day actually...

i thought my assignment was due at 9 this morning...

so i woke up at 7...

and went to the southern cross stasion at 8...

there was a train going to dandenong at 8.25...

so i took the train because i want to go to caulfield (frankston,pakenham,cranbourne and dandenong are going to caulfield)...

the train delayed when we about to reach flinders street for about 10 minutes...

and suddenly...

the train changed it destination...

it went to alamein...

which is not my destination...

i was really mad at connex at that time...

they are so bad at organizing all those train schedule....

but when the train arrived at richmond...

the destination was changed back to pakenham...

what a good arrangement connex....

hate u...

hahaha....

if u don't understand my word never mind...

i just want to write it anyway....

well...

time to bed...

it is 8.18 in melben...

and i have my day off tomorrow...

ohh...it feels like heaven...

hahahaha....

that's all...

have a good day...

CIAO

♥F♥

Assignment time!!!!!!!!!

huuuuuuuuuuu....
i'm doing my Macro assignment right now...
and i hate it to the core of my heart....
and it is due today (since it is already 23 March 2009, 12.13 A.M)... at 9...
hahaha...
i'll do it until 3...
hope i'll finish it on time...
i don't know why they have to give us all those stupid assignment...
hahahaha.....
anyway,tomorrow Boys over Flowers episode 22 will be airing in Korea...
hope those fansubs team can subbed it fast so i can watch it...
it is the only thing that cheer my mood up...
hahaha...i gotta have my dose of Hyun Joong everyday...seems like i haven't got enough dose of him today...thank to all my assignments...
i will pay it tomorrow...
i guarantee...
hahahahahaha.........
I read a novel by sophie kinsella recently...
it is called "Confession of a shopaholic" hahaha...
they've made the movie version of it...
and i haven't seen it...
once again...thanks to all my assignment...
hahahaha...
but all my friends said the movie is quite nice...
i have to see it my self,,,,
i'll write review of the book....
and then i'll compare it with the movie...
let's see which one is better...
hahaha...
ok...that's it for now...
i must continue doing my assignment...
CIAO....
Love...
♥F♥

Holla 2009....

Hello all...
how are you?
hahaha...
it is my first post in this year...
it is 2009 already...
i've been living in Melbourne for a year already...
WOW....
hahahhaa....
well...
Although it is so boring here...
but i enjoy living in Melbourne....
hahaha...
i really do....
i failed 1 subject in college (the subject is the hardest subject in Monash probably) hahaha...
it is Function and Their Application....
i hate it to the core of my heart....
yackk....
hahahah...
but anyway....
have u watched boys over flowers?
do u love it???
what do u think about Korean F4?
because i LOVEEEEEEEE them....
they are the perfect F4....
well...
i used to think no F4 can beat Taiwan's F4...
but actually...
korean F4 beats them...
hahahha....
Lee Min Ho as Goo Jun Pyo is so amazing...he is so lovely....
Kim Hyun Joong (SS501's Leader) is the greatest among them all...hahaha...
it is so clear that i love Hyun Joong so bad...
i even consider to continue my study in Korea...
hahaha....
i will take Korean as my elective in Uni...
i want to learn how to speak Korean...
Hyun Joong is so adorable in We Got Married....
he is my ideal husband hahahhaa....
ok...next...
Kim Bum...as Yi Jung....u can't resist to love him...he just adorable...he has his own charisma...i can's explain it...he is lovely...i like him....
Kim Joon as Woo Bin...he has a little part in the drama...but still...he is gorgeous...
hwahhhhh....
LOVE them so bad....
BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS is a must watch drama....
u have to watch it and share ur thought....
Love ya....

F